Oh, friend… this right here is real. This is the kind of truth most people feel but don’t always say out loud.
Life-altering events rarely come wrapped in something beautiful. They barge in. They shatter. They steal the air from your lungs. Betrayal. Divorce. Abuse. Diagnosis. Accidents. Death. The kind of moments that divide your life into before and after.
Most people don’t process their pain.
Not because they’re weak.
Not because they don’t care.
But because life does not pause for heartbreak.
The kids are still hungry.
The laundry still piles up.
The job still expects you to show up.
The world keeps spinning when your world just stopped.
So you survive.
You go into task mode.
You stay busy because busy doesn’t cry.
Busy feels productive.
Busy feels strong.
Busy keeps you from sitting in the quiet… where the truth is waiting.
But buried pain doesn’t disappear. It just goes underground.
And underground things grow roots.
Unprocessed betrayal becomes suspicion.
Unprocessed abandonment becomes insecurity.
Unprocessed trauma becomes control.
Unprocessed grief becomes numbness.
And before long, you’re reacting to people who didn’t wound you as if they did.
“Hurt people hurt people” isn’t just a catchy phrase — it’s a warning sign.
The hard, holy work is this:
Stopping long enough to admit, “That broke me.”
Not to live there.
Not to stay stuck.
But to invite God into the exact place that aches.
He cannot heal what we refuse to uncover.
Sometimes we think strength means pushing through.
But biblical strength often looks like surrender.
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It looks like sitting with the Lord and saying,
“Search me. Show me what I buried. I don’t want to bleed on people who didn’t cut me.”
That takes courage.
Because facing it feels like reopening a wound.
But in reality, it’s allowing the Great Physician to clean it so it can finally close correctly.
You are not weak for needing healing.
You are wise.
And here’s the beautiful part — the goal isn’t just survival.
It’s transformation.
God doesn’t waste pain.
He refines through it.
He rebuilds through it.
He restores identity through it.
But only the pain we bring to Him can become power in Him.
So maybe… yes.
Maybe it is time to look inside your heart.
Not with shame.
Not with condemnation.
But with honesty.
Ask yourself:
• What am I still angry about?
• What do I avoid thinking about?
• Who do I still resent?
• Where did I start building walls?
And then hand it to Him — piece by piece.
You were never meant to carry silent wounds for decades.
You were meant to be healed.
Whole.
Free.
And freedom begins when we stop running from what hurt us and start letting God into it.
Scripture: “Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” Psalm 139:23–24, KJV.
By Susan Bolinger – Bloom Ladies Ministry, DOTK Community Writer
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Yes, yes and yes! Amen! Healed by the grace of God. Abounding in His grace!
2 Corinthians 9:8
Powerful devotional this morning! Reminds of Psalm 139 where a person can ask God to search their heart. Very encouraging! Thank you!
What an awsome devotional!!! I so needed to hear this and to be made aware of the things that I am unknowingly struggling with. Pain, betrayal. Things I have buried and tried to forget.
I have to learn to admit that these things are there and learn to surrender it all to my Father. That is hard for me but God and I are working on it. Thank you again!!!
Thank you for this divine word. This is what I needed to read and I still into my heart .❤️
This devotional goes deep. 💯 True in my life. I have so many wounds. It is time for me to reflect, healed and be healthy; physically, mentally, emotionally & financially. The Lord will get the Glory out of my life. Thank you so much. Blessings, Shalom and Agape 👀🙏🏽♥️📖🙌🏽
Amen!!!! This is why I wrote my book …By GRACE , I SPEAK ! ❤️🙏🏽
This is great practical, yet phenomenal wisdom!
I am a recovered sra survivor from the Calif political/exec banker/entertainment industry circle of lunatics that I was born into. I am a Light of the Heavenly Kingdom and was never one of them. So., while going through recovery, 5 years ago my best friend of 50 years took her own life. She grew up in the same neighborhood where I did with the same people. Then my kids finished college and my disabilities no longer helped them financially, so I had to find another place to live. I went to Colorado to live with my childhood sweetheart/other best friend. We became engaged. He passed away from a heart attack 4 years ago, and I lost my home to his sons that wanted it. I had to move back across the country to live with my mom because she had a heart attack 2 days after my fiance passed from one. She had been fine on the phone that whole time, but when I got there it was a terrible mess. AND she was rapidly losing to Vascular Dementia. She isn’t the kind of person to turn nice in her later days, and she became combative. After 9 hospital stays, they said she needed to be in full care. I was diagnosed with Ehler-Danlos/MCAS/POTS. I had to raise money to clean and pack while constantly getting injured and then move from her apartment because I was on Disability of $500 a month and the management wanted me out. Apparently, it was a prime apartment and they could get thousands for it. I moved into a very low income place with Section 8. My support animal-other best friend passed from cancer. The people upstairs constantly fought and were literally trying to literally kill one another. The apartment ended up having unseen mold in the walls, because I was diagnosed with toxic levels in my blood. I had to fight to move to another building. Through all of this, my mom is in full care and having flashbacks of the sra abuse that she refused to get any healing help with. It’s a constant nightmare.
BUT my new apartment is beautiful! It has new almost soundproof walls. Neighbors are peaceful and wonderful. I am encouraging other survivors and am in a network that includes Ep Island survivors too. These are strong and beautiful Christian people. I have my music equipment set up, and I am going to play for Veterans and people that are healing. Through everything, I got songs in my sleep, and they are awesome. My Heavenly Father made sure that I knew He was with me through everything. Miracles constantly.
So OH YES, I can relate to this post 100%. I am daily, sometimes hourly, giving things over to my King of Kings and letting them go. I am working with the best counselor on the planet and reading “The Body Keeps The Score”.
There is also an amazing woman on Youtube, named Bella Payne, who coaches people in videos, concerning how trauma can be held in the throat. I am moving out of performance anxiety which stems from it not being a pleasant thing to be the center of attention long ago. This is what has kept me stuck.
It’s like we are here, Boots on the Ground Heavenly Kingdom Warriors to create and sustain Heavenly Level Light in this world, to counter the dark and evil. Sometimes we are living in very dark places, and yet just being who we are still holds that Light in the midst. We take constant hits from enemies in the Spiritual Warfare sense. But what those enemies don’t realize is that all they do is make us more determined and stronger.
Through everything, these daily devotionals by so many Warrior Women of Heavenly Kingdom Light, (and Pastor Trippet), have helped to give me comfort and strength!
It always hits right where I need it.
Thank you! THANK YOU!
Love to you All, from Tenacious Tam (yep that’s what I am going by as of today)
My GOD, My GOD. Thanks for teaching Me, to trust YOU and lean not to My own understandings. IN JESUS Mighty Name!!! Amen…
Thanks To The DOTK Family & Crew
My GOD, My GOD. Thanks for promising words allowing Me, to trust YOU and lean not to My own understandings. IN JESUS Mighty Name!!! Amen…
Thanks To The DOTK Family & Crew
Wow, wow, wow, What an awesome Devotion. Thank you so much. This really touched me.
May our Lord God bless you always. Continue spreading the word. Your devotions are always helpful.
Wow. Such an amazing, profound message that is beautiful in its simplicity. Thank you, Susan Bolinger, for sharing. May our gracious God help us all find healing & grant us peace ❤️ 🙏 🕊
Thank you for sharing your devotions as I read this evening father God in the mighty name of Jesus help me with my heavy burden that I may be caring I’m giving it all to you father God right now in the name of Jesus with all the burdens I give it to you father God in the name of Jesus Christ you take control of my life in my going and all my ways I love your will to guide me in the right directions and show me all that you have for me in Jesus name Amen 🙏🏾🙌🏾🌹🙌🏾
This is great practical, yet phenomenal wisdom!
I am a recovered sra survivor from the Calif political/exec banker/entertainment industry circle of lunatics that I was born into. I am a Light of the Heavenly Kingdom and was never one of them. So., while going through recovery, 5 years ago my best friend of 50 years took her own life. She grew up in the same neighborhood where I did with the same people. Then my kids finished college and my disabilities no longer helped them financially, so I had to find another place to live. I went to Colorado to live with my childhood sweetheart/other best friend. We became engaged. He passed away from a heart attack 4 years ago, and I lost my home to his sons that wanted it. I had to move back across the country to live with my mom because she had a heart attack 2 days after my fiance passed from one. She had been fine on the phone that whole time, but when I got there it was a terrible mess. AND she was rapidly losing to Vascular Dementia. She isn’t the kind of person to turn nice in her later days, and she became combative. After 9 hospital stays, they said she needed to be in full care. I was diagnosed with Ehler-Danlos/MCAS/POTS. I had to raise money to clean and pack while constantly getting injured and then move from her apartment because I was on Disability of $500 a month and the management wanted me out. Apparently, it was a prime apartment and they could get thousands for it. I moved into a very low income place with Section 8. My support animal-other best friend passed from cancer. The people upstairs constantly fought and were literally trying to literally kill one another. The apartment ended up having unseen mold in the walls, because I was diagnosed with toxic levels in my blood. I had to fight to move to another building. Through all of this, my mom is in full care and having flashbacks of the sra abuse that she refused to get any healing help with. It’s a constant nightmare.
BUT my new apartment is beautiful! It has new almost soundproof walls. Neighbors are peaceful and wonderful. I have my music equipment set up, and I am going to play for Veterans and people that are healing. Through everything, I got songs in my sleep, and they are awesome. My Heavenly Father made sure that I knew He was with me through everything. Miracles constantly.
So OH YES, I can relate to this post 100%. I am daily, sometimes hourly, giving things over to my King of Kings and letting them go. I am working with the best counselor on the planet and reading “The Body Keeps The Score”.
There is also an amazing woman on Youtube, named Bella Payne, who coaches people in videos, concerning how trauma can be held in the throat. I am moving out of performance anxiety which stems from it not being a pleasant thing to be the center of attention long ago. This is what has kept me stuck.
It’s like we are here, Boots on the Ground Heavenly Kingdom Warriors to create and sustain Heavenly Level Light in this world, to counter the dark and evil. Sometimes we are living in very dark places, and yet just being who we are still holds that Light in the midst. We take constant hits from enemies in the Spiritual Warfare sense. But what those enemies don’t realize is that all they do is make us more determined and stronger.
Through everything, these daily devotionals by so many Warrior Women of Heavenly Kingdom Light, (and Pastor Trippet), have helped to give me comfort and strength!
It always hits right where I need it.
Thank you! THANK YOU!
Love to you All, from Tenacious Tam (yep that’s what I am going by as of today)
Great day. I’m reading this devotional today a day later. All I can say is God really spoke deeply to you and through. Ps 139 Is PERSONAL every believer to examine themselves. 🥲🥲❤️❤️.
Thank you
Great day. I’m reading this devotional today a day later. All I can say is God really spoke deeply to you and through. Ps 139 Is PERSONAL every believer to examine themselves. 🥲🥲❤️❤️.
Thank you
Amen Amen & Amen 🙏🏽☝🏽🙌🏽👏🏽🫶🏽💜🤍🕊️✨
On Wednesday night bible study the question was asked what is the one thing you would change before getting married if we could go back?
I said trust/truth/transparency, I went through some childhood trauma that I concealed during courtship with my then boyfriend now husband. I was in bondage from passed hurt. Well one day we was kissing, which triggered something from my pass. Which caused him to say “If I was trying to make him miserable, he was done “.
What it know now is that when you enter into relationships you need to talk about past trauma so that it doesn’t and your marriage before it get started. Trust your mate, so he will help you.
(Hurt people, hurt people) It’s not fair to them, if you’re taking that past hurt out on them.
Marriage is based on love, trust, and truths. This will make your union stronger or break it. But don’t let it.
36 years later. Still here.
So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate”. Matt 19: 6 (Nobody or anything)
Stick n Stay, Stop and Pray.
Thank you, for conformation
In the name of Jesus, Amen
Thank You Father for all things my good and bad and the ugly. Thank You Jesus, Thank You Holy Ghost for helping me to grow into praying and loving my enemies, forgiving them who hurt me and my family. With you living in me I have been able to forgive them and help them just as you have helped me and forgiven me. Have your way Lord I choose to forgive everybody and myself too for the pain of the past. So I can be more like you Papa. Thank you Lord for your grace, Love and mercy. ♥️♥️♥️
This can preach! This kind of word has the power to change lives! Thank you! 🙏🏾
WOW!!!! I’m going to print this and frame it.