Secret Sins

“Just as Death and Destruction are never satisfied, so human desire is never satisfied.” Proverbs 27:20

Since I was a young girl, masturbation has been a real struggle for me. You would think that because I’ve been married to an amazing man of God for 22 years who satisfies me greatly, that any desire to please myself would vanish. No, the enemy still tries because he knows human desire is never satisfied. Never. I remember a time I gave in to it and the next thing you know I found myself shopping online for a dildo. Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, “A dildo is idolatry because you are looking to an object to do what I created your husband to do for you.” A dildo will have you thinking why do I even need a man? And that’s exactly the enemy’s goal. I repented and recommitted myself to the Lord.

The world says masturbation is okay, but it’s not okay. When we give our bodies over to what it wants when it wants it, we show a lack of self-control. Taking care of ourselves, whether by hand or an object, it confuses our entire system because that is not how God created us to be gratified. It can be damaging psychologically without us knowing it because it enters our psyche that we don’t need a man to take care of us sexually, that we are “good.” The enemy wants us depending on anything but God and His way. God is stronger than our desires, my sister. At our weakest point, His strength is made perfect in us.

God is helping me to walk this out daily. Resisting sin on the left and on the right. Completely running away from lusts I’ve dealt with since childhood. Some days I look down at my girly members and say, “You better line up right now, in Jesus’ name. Settle down! We’re not doing that!” Most nights I listen to anointed worship and the Bible while I sleep, and watch scripture videos during the day. I’ve had to communicate with my husband about any struggles and educate him even more about my body. Doing whatever I have to do to make sure I’m practicing what I preach.

As long as we’re on this side of heaven, we need the strength of God helping us to walk this out. We need the grace of God to show ourselves loads of grace and compassion.

Declare with me today, “Father, I refuse to be bound another day to sexual sin. I receive the freedom I have in Christ. I command my body to line up right now. I reject the enemy’s lies that tell me I can take better care of myself sexually than a man can. I reject the lie that tells me God won’t provide what I long for. I rebuke the spirit of lust and perversion, and I submit to the Spirit of God only. My body belongs to God, and He will produce in me the godly characteristic of self-control. Because of Jesus, I am no longer a slave to sin. I am a servant of Christ and He will help me overcome in this area. I depend on Him and trust in His love and power. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”

(Read 1 Corinthians 6:18; 2 Timothy 2:22-26; Romans 6:19; Philippians 2:13)

16 thoughts on “Secret Sins”

  1. Thank you for sharing this. It truly spoke to me and helped me to see. I use struggle with sexual sins for years. To the point I got extremely angry if I wasn’t satisfied my way. Thanks be to God, He has delivered me from that and I am free. But this word really helped me.

  2. Praise God sister for this powerful testimony of deliverance! Thank you for sharing. So many of us need to know we are not alone in overcoming this form of idolatry!
    Make you continue to know God’s love, grace, and sanctified mercy you show to others! Love you sister.

  3. Is it a sin to use a device when the husband is impotent because of a surgery he had to remove his prostate because of cancer?

    1. It is still a sin. Like our sister said in the devotional we were made free in Christ and He no longer wants us to be slaves to sin. When we pray, we can use Philippians 2:12-13 and 2 Corinthians 12:9 as well as Philippians 4:19. This situation is hard, but God is still Holy and wants us to be Holy. We need to keep presenting ourselves to Him wholly and tell Him what our hardships and faults are and allow the light of His Word to keep transforming our darkness to light. There is freedom in Christ, from all forms of sin. I believe that.

  4. We wrestle not against flesh and blood but against different strata of wickedness targeted against the daughters of God . Born through Eve .

    Not by power – self
    Not by might – self
    But by my Spirit- God
    Every wicked ness operating in the heavenly lies, the unseen world and this dark world ; fighting against womanhood in different ways our sexuality -abortions, lesbianism,- adultery prostitution, masturbation, gender fluidity , depression, divorce etc be silenced and be bound hands and feet , cast into the abyss in Jesus mighty name amen

  5. Thank you my Sister so much for sharing this message and the Sin that tries to entangle us, as I too struggle with the same! Had to resist just last night from masturbating!
    The Lord Bless us and keep us, The Lord make his
    face shine on us and be gracious to us the Lord turn his face toward us and give us peace”. I love you Sister and Thank GOD for you

  6. This was a struggle of mine for years and I am so grateful God has delivered me!! Thank you for sharing and letting me know, I’m not alone!

  7. Thanks so much for your faithfulness and honesty in the devotions because it helps to know true struggles exist but we must resist thank you women of God .

  8. My God. Thank you Jesus. I just struggled with this sin this morning. I thank you my Sister because God knows us all and what our struggles are in this area of sin. Right on time word for me and others who have this same struggles. My Sister’s in Christ we will overcome this sin in the mighty name of Jesus Christ who died for our sins. Amen and Amen 🙏

  9. Thank you for allowing yourself to be vulnerable to share. I needed your openness so I could be open with myself first then to God. The enemy has used this tactic against me in my dreams but no more. Your words “I don’t need a man” spoke to my single heart. God created me to need a man and I have lied to myself for so long that I don’t need a man that a wrong door was opened. Whether single or married I will trust God with my feelings and my needs as a woman. Faithful is He who said He would supply all our needs! God bring freedom to all who struggle in this place!

  10. Lord I pray for my dear sister. She was bold and courageous to share her testimony. I pray you give her the grace to overcome and be all that you purposed her to be. Let no sin overtake her but rather may she be overwhelmed by your love and goodness. May you continue to work in and through her life greatly. In Jesus name I ask these things with thanksgiving. Amen 🙏🏾

  11. God has done a work in me in this area too. I have to continually remember to die to my flesh daily. Greater is the Lord in me than those in the world. Thank you. Blessings, Shalom and Agape 👀🙏🏽♥️📖🙌🏽

  12. Praise God! Praise God! Praise God! Heavenly Father, thank you for the writers on Dotk app. I thank God, for the transparency of your testimony. God, has been so gracious with me and delivered me from so much, but I sometimes struggle as well. Jesus, said, I always cause my people to triumph in victory;. Thanks Be to God! In Jesus Name. AMEN

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